Midlife is a strange age to approach. You realize just the sort of things that can annoy the fire out of you. First of all, I love to fish and be outdoors. Winter keeps us stuck indoors. Sure there are lots of chores to do and foods to cook but you are still stuck inside for days or weeks. Annoying to say the least.
Secondly, it is being so young and having a Spouse that is sick. Although I never regret any moment of being a caregiver, I do tend at times to get annoyed that there is a man in my condo 24/7 but I mostly do everything alone. There are no adult nights out, just me seeing a movie at the theater and returning to home. No trips down south just to tell the world goodbye for a couple nights. Takes so much to load the vehicles up these days.
Third things that seem to annoy me more and more at this age is not being able to be still and meditate as when I was younger. There once was a time I could send the family on their way out into the world and sip my tea and Be Still. Life just does not seem to have that door open lately. If you do care given for a spouse, especially a difficult type of patient your me time becomes very valuable to you even if it is just to watch a movie uninterrupted.
Last but certainly very important is difficult people. They show up in Friends, Family, and other parts of a life. I really do thank God for showing me how not to act through some of these types of people. I would not want someone to be hurt or feel hurt the way difficult people have made me feel.
Let us review:
- Being an avid outdoor fan; it annoys me that winter keeps us stuck inside
- Entering my 50’s as a caregiver to the spouse instead of enjoying retirement annoys me
- Not always having me time annoys me and not being allowed to express those feelings
- Difficult people> I would not want someone to be hurt or feel hurt the way difficult people have made me feel.